Thank you

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"Forgive me, I'm still learning", I said as the words stumbled out of my mouth like a newborn deer on ice while trying to communicate in a different language. A different language... seems like everything in life is "a different language". But that's ok, because we are all still learning. No one pops into this world knowing all there is to know, claiming the hold all the knowledge. Yet we stumble and apologize for trying, when we should be proud for it. Trying is the very opposite of stagnation. Stagnation is not the root of all failures, trying is, because failure isn't a bad thing, it is an opportunity to learn, a chance at growth. Stagnation is just a choice to allow the quicksand slowly swallow us whole, swallow our hopes and dreams, our chances along with all the other possible choices.

I'm not sad I tried, even if you didn't. I'm not mad, I keep trying. And the results have been great, even if just failed attempts keep piling up and covering my view to the horizon. I still break through and keep going because "not doing anything about it" isn't my style. With a pumped chest and a shining forehead, I walk forward towards the unknown, and the calluses on my hands and feet become my shields as the boiling lava builds my path.

Now I just need to change my vocabulary. I used to say things to make others feel comfortable by putting myself down. But I understand now. My words should reflect my drive, and so they will. No more will I say sorry for trying, instead I'll be thankful for the chances given, grateful for the broken words, laugh at the misunderstandings, cheer at the failures and embrace the fallouts. I've never let anything destroy me, so why should these bumps in my road be the kind of problem that hold me down. They don't have that power, so why would I give them that? Why would I give you the power to bring me down? So I only have two words for you: Thank You.

Location: Kaga, Ishikawa, Japan

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